What Is It?

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Time check, it’s 3 o’clock in the morning. I can’t seem to sleep yet.

My mom’s sleeping silently by my side. My cousin’s covering herself with her blanket by the other side. My dad’s snoring loudly on the floor. And then there’s me, facing a laptop at this time with both of my eyes and brain wide open.

What am I doing? I’m just thinking. Somewhat confused.

Who is the real me?

Why is this happening?

Was this fated?

I can’t tell if this is real. It’s making me feel weird. Every time it happens, I just can’t describe it. There’s a part of me that’s like, jumping up and down and so excited. The other part’s like, whoa, what did I just feel?

I don’t know if I should be happy about this. It’s kind of making me worry a little bit. It’s not that I don’t like it. It’s just… Something too enigmatic for me.

Until now, I’m at the point where I’m still trying to find myself. But could this current me, be the real me? Or is the real me still somewhere out there in the near future waiting to be unfold?

As the radiation starts to irritate me, as my vision starts to deceive me, as the sun starts to rise to the sky, I need to get some shut-eye.

Hoping that I can dream of this again. And this time, I hope to gets answers from questions generated by my curiosity.

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